I think I'm going to abandon blogspot. I'm not sure if this is a permanent move, but we'll see. I started a new online journal here...

I'm back! I tried to write something last week but my stupid computer crashed. I think I wrote something about the Leafs and how sad I was that they were out of the playoffs. And then I wrote something about the Canucks and how I would love to see their asses get kicked by the Wild. I don't know why, but I just hate the Canucks. I don't hate them as a team, maybe just Bertuzzi. He's the biggest goon next to Tucker, but Tucker is a Leaf so I don't really mind him, hee hee. Maybe it's just jealousy because I admit it, they are a better team than the Leafs, but we have a better goalie, so HA!

I finished my exams on May 1st, and I hope I passed all my exams cuz I don't want to repeat 3rd Year. But I'm really worried I failed Reactions because I know I didn't get one question right on the exam. Oh well, at least I *know* that I wouldn't be the only one repeating the course if I do fail the course. And I need a freakin' job. I guess I could go back to my job last summer, but I need something that is related to my program. I still need my 600 hrs or I don't graduate. I had an interview the day after my last exam and I wasn't prepared at all. I expected them to ask me questions like "Why should we hire you" or "What do you have to offer to our company" or "Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?" But nooooo.... They asked me stupid technical and environmental questions. Grrrrr.... They asked about the Ecoli virus, but I couldn't remember the stupid name, so I just sat there with this dumb look on my face. I felt like crying right after. I've never been so humiliated in an interview before. I hope they weren't laughing at me when I left.

It's been a while since I last updated, but nothing really new or exciting has been happening. I just feel an itch to write now to whine/complain vent about Jeff. I fucking hate that guy. How would you feel if someone close to you betrayed you?

I was willing to let go some of the annoying things that he does but last week he crossed a line that should never be crossed --lying to me. Ayesha and I both asked him for solutions for the Separations problem sets. He told us that no, he didn't have them. Well, guess what? He did, and he approached Ramona days before and gave her the solutions and told her not to tell anyone. What's with the favouritism, Jeff? I understand that it is not your obligation to give us the solutions, and if you feel that you should keep it to yourself because you got them from your "source", then I'll let you be. But no! You fucking lied to me and Ayesha. Fuck, whenever you ask me for my answers I always give them to you! And the solutions are not even your own work! If you want to stay on top of the class, then start going to class and stop copying someone else's work WITHOUT understanding it. Do you know why Irene's marks are one of the best in class? Because she is not selfish -- she helps people and it gives her pleasure knowing that she has helped one of us understand the materials and therefore learn!!! She doesn't care if that's going to bring up the average, she doesn't have to worry because no matter what, she's still one of the smartest in class. She doesn't wish that someone will fail the exam, because that's not in her nature, she doesn't step on toes so as to make herself stay on top. You, Jeff, on the other hand, is the complete opposite of her. You are a deceiving, lying, stupid, lazy person. You make sure everything is at your advantage (which is understandable) but you are not afraid to use people. You despise people who are no use to you, and you hate people in our class who are arrogant and know-it-all. Well, guess what? I guess you must hate yourself because you are the most arrogant and most know-it-all person I know!

I've had issues with you since first year, but I always kept it to myself because I don't want to ruffle your feathers. But guess what? I am not taking any of your shit anymore! This hatred started when we were preparing for your stupid Dialysis Lab. What kind of a supervisor are you? We cared more about your lab and we weren't even the ones writing it. Remember when we divided the pre-lab questions? All 3 of us (Ayesha, Ramona, and me) spent a whole Saturday afternoon/night doing the questions. I was even doing it Monday night and I finally sent you my answers at 10PM, and the next morning at around 10 when we met to do the PFD, you gave me the answers you got from another group. Well, when I was worrying the night before whether I would be able to give you my answers on time, did you have the courtesy to tell me not to worry anymore because you already got the answers from someone else? NO! You fucking wasted our time, and you know what? Your results were screwed up but I could have fixed it but I just didn't feel sorry for you because you fucking didn't know what you were doing. If you knew your material then you would've noticed and would've known what to do with the fucked up absorbance and transmittance that we were getting. I knew they were fucked up but I didn't care because you didn't care from the beginning. You only started to care when you were writing the report but I guess that was too late.

I guess you don't realize just how many people do not really like you. I feel sorry for you because of that, but everytime you do something selfish, all that pity disappears and instead replaced by hatred because I can't believe such a self-centred person exists in this world. And even though you get people to like you by giving them solutions or buying them expensive gifts, I know there's always a motive behind it. You never act out of sheer generosity, you always expect something in return. And you may not be smart school-wise, you are a fucking smart person having used people without them even knowing it. I hope one day they will catch on and realize that you are not what you appear to be!

Touch me in the morning... then just walk away... we don't have tomorrow... but we had yesterday...

That song has been stuck in my head since Tuesday, ever since Ashley sang it on American Idol. I have to agree with most of the judges when they sort of insulted Ashley, but the way the raved about Corey Clark... c'mon.. I thought Ashley sang way better! Ugh, I can't stand that guy. Maybe because he looks like this guy I used to work with, Sanj. Sooo annoying! The hair, the smile, so annoying!

Anyway, I am rooting for CHIP DAYS. He is so gorgeous! I am so glad he got picked for the Wild Card, although I was a little bit disappointed when HADAS didn't. It's too bad I can't vote since I live in Canada, but I heard we're going to have a Canadian Idol. Errr, okaaay. Let's just see how that would turn out.

So, yes, I'm so addicted to American Idol. Like yesterday, I was supposed to finish my Materials assignment, and I found myself reading the AI message boards instead --- for 2 hours! I stayed at school for 2 hours reading a stupid message board!

I'm going to cut this entry short because I have to start my pre-lab and I can't do it tonight since I'm going out with G and friends. Ack, I don't really feel like going anywhere because I need to catch up on my sleep. I'm so glad midterms are over. Well, I still have 2 to go towards the end of the month, but I don't want to worry about them yet.

Those damn cults!

About 3 years ago I got involved in this business group, sort of like Am-way. Wait, it was Am-way, but it is now the "internet" version. I was depressed about my job situation and Jordan approached me and offered me this business opportunity. I was so excited. I felt that it was my salvation. I went to the weekly meetings with eagerness and I fearlessly approached people to introduce them to this opportunity. To make the long story short, I quickly realized that it was all a big scam and I got out of it before it ruined my reputation. My friends tried to warn me and fortunately, I listened to them. I guess that experience taught me to be suspicious if anything appears unnatural. I also learned not to let people manipulate me. Oh gawd, all the time I was in the business, I felt like being pushed around by my "upline" but I was too scared to say anything because I wanted to impress them.

What made me remember this awful experience? Well, I was at Tim Horton's last night with Sarah. She was also familiar with the business because she was one of my victims. What these people do is they invite a potential recruit to a coffee shop, to discuss their "hopes and dreams." We couldn't help overhearing them, because the same tactic was used on us when we had the interview/meeting. The words the guy used to lure his potential victim were all to familiar. We were trying hard not to laugh when the guy brought up familiar names associated with the business. We could've been really nasty and mean by approaching the other guy and warning him not to get involved in this scam, but I thought it was better if he finds that out himself.